1. Oh, how I wish Ben would eat more than cheese, yogurt, fruit strips, oatmeal, meatballs, chicken nuggets, applesauce, pasta, grilled cheese, and quesadillas. Because that is a very short rotation, and involves zero vegetables.
2. I hope Matt's not sensitive to dairy like Ben was. He is very gassy.
3. Elmo's voice is annoying. But he sure does hold Ben's attention long enough for me to shower!
4. Ben is starting to string 3 words together in a sentence, which is cute. One of them is almost always "please," though, so it's kind of a two-word sentence. But still. He also tells stories one word at a time, like "Daddy ... tractor ... mow ... riiiiide! ... Grass. Bah-bye!"
5. Josh says we are done having babies. Maybe HE is done having babies, nobody ASKED me. Ha ha. Truth be told, I don't really want to be pregnant again, or go through labor and delivery again, or be up all night at night again, or potty train a third child (eventually), etc. But it does make me sad to think that I am done with this part of my life. Very, very sad.
6. I am so a goal-oriented person. This is for sure why the first few years after college were so dissatisfying to me: no more training, no more racing, no more tests/grading... no measurement of accomplishment anywhere. Being pregnant is kind of like a race (a marathon!); you get pregnant, and try to finish this 'course' in the best way possible, la la la. I am once again at a point in my life where there is nothing tangible to accomplish (no need to point out that raising children is an accomplishment by itself, I know, I know), so I am starting to identify, and work toward checking items off of, my bucket list. It's fairly short so far, but the first few tasks on the list are kind of arduous. If I do them in order, I'll be on #1 and #2 for several years. And no, I don't plan on publishing my bucket list anytime soon.
7. That last thought was like a ten minute thought, sheesh.
8. Cloth diapering is WAY easier than you'd think it would be, seriously! But it is not without its bumps in the road, and because one never finds herself troubleshooting disposable diapers, it is easy to imagine that disposables are easier. I really don't think this is true, honestly! And I am surprised to hear myself say that.
9. I am looking forward to Christmas. Except for the fact that Ben turns two immediately afterward. We're going to The Great State this year, and I am so excited! I hope it snows. (Sorry, Dad.) Since both sides of our family draw names, it has become much less stressful to shop. I actually have fun trying to find a really good gift.
10. Time for dinner!
4 comments:
I agree on the done having babies paragraph...it made me very sad to make that permanent. I had a very hard time with it (even crying in the OR during my C-S). It's hard to imagine I am out of my "child-bearing" years. I must say though, after how tough the last 6 weeks have been...I know I made the right decision. It's still sad to think about. However, if Shawn and I ever want to enjoy the money he makes working so hard for us AND still be able to save to send our kids to college...well then, 3 is plenty. :)
Love ten second thoughts! James also says no more babies and I'm with you when you say "Nobody ASKED me" And...on another note...perhaps you and I should somehow (between balancing our husband's schedules and babies) look for a 5k (or dare I say more!?) to train for (or some other such thing that requires having a goal!). I would be so much more motivated if I had someone to do that with! Just a thought.
Ah, babies. I just feel so unfinished after 2, it has always been 3 for me, despite all logic. So I am still pushing for it... the idea of being done is sad, yes. In spite of the difficulties.
Great list. I too must be goal-oriented, as post grad-school and post-babies, I experienced long periods of feeling somehow useless. It's good to find an anchor, that something to work toward.
It's funny how everyone responded to the baby thing. I was going to say the same thing. I feel like periods are so pointless now. Like why do I need this for the next 20 some years? And it makes me very sad thinking that that my body has 'closed up shop' in that aspect, like 'sorry female parts, you guys did me well but I don't need you anymore.' And you know my thoughts about being pregnant, I just love it.
But then reality sets in (as I have a baby on my lap as we speak) and I can't wait to do fun things with ALL three. Like when we ALL can do crafts and trips and stuff, I dont have to start over again with a baby.
I like carlson's idea of a run for you two. A nice aspiration. Did I mention the jealousy of the bladder control? :) It would be something to strive for though. I hear ya, it's really hard feeling like you are at a stagnant part of your life when you are supposed to be LOVING it. I get it.
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